depression strikes back

Yesterday I had the most awkward lunch ever.

My gay friend and I went to the lunch together and while waiting in the line he spotted my senpai.

He was like: invite him over to sit with us, he's alone anyway.

So I gathered some balls and waved.

Three of us were sitting and it was so awkward.

Senpai was quiet as usual and was eating his lunch, my gay friend was sipping his soup and grinning at me and I was boiling hot(it was horrible outside and I'm heat intolerant) and trying hard to swallow my lunch.

I decided to stop the awkwardness of the moment and grabbed random newspapers that were next to me.

"Newspaper for patriotism and religious something something" okaayyy *opens the newspaper*

"Interview with 10 cardinals" ...fuck.

Guess what's worse than being friendzoned?

Being in a relationship and than get friendzoned.

I broke up with my boyfriend last week, after 1180 days of being together.

It hurts.

A LOT.

I'm okay as long as I am with someone, but as soon as I'm left alone I get depressed.

Update about lost package!

It returned to Japan!

Dumb postman that was in charge while my postman was away FORGOT to leave notification about arrival of package.

The package was sitting 5 days in post office, no one picked it up, it was returned.

YAY!

And now, CDJapan is not answering my emails and they said if I don't contact them withing 7 days they will make the refund.

I don't want damn refund, I want my package back!!!

UGH!!!